Pondering.
Over thinking.
You can call it whatever you want.
Have I learned to stop doing that.. apparently not. Let go of the past.
Every time I remember that old, nasty stuff I just want to run as far as possible.
I can joke about it in some situations, but otherwise I won't mention it.
No, I have to hide it deep, deep down where not even me can find it. But that is going to be impossible since I'm such a fool. And the biggest question is why it keeps popping up in my mind all the time. Phew. Grrauh.
And then it quickly transforms to anger, hatred, sadness and other really bizarre feelings.
Whatever. "Don't say maybe if you want to say no" Should learn to do that more often.
Why is it so hard to forget?
Repressed memories. I would want to be able to organize the things I don't want to remember. It's quite a lot actually when it's 20 years of unnecessary shit to carry around.
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Anyhow, I managed to get this from the store today.
Just want to see if it works that's all.
I've been testing the silver shampoo but I don't know if I see any changes in my hair so let's see if this works wonders.
Until next time,
Haadi
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